Tuesday, March 23, 2010

The Interminable Wait

First off let me welcome those of you stopping by for ICLW! I'm Lynn, 31 years young, married to The Hubs, been TTC for 6 years with never even a hint of two pink lines. I'm glad you decided to stop by and visit me! You can read more about my TTC history here, here, here and here. We've been through a lot on our journey to be parents, but we're confident one day we'll be blessed with a child of our own, either biologically or through adoption or both. I'm currently in the midst of a confusing cyle where I tried Femara and it produced many good follies and Fertility Friend seems to think I've ovulated but I'm not totally convinced. My temps haven't gone up much yet.

I'm feeling very down today. As I said above, I'm still not totally certain I've ovulated because my temps are still fairly low and I really wanted this month to produce results. I called my doctor's office again yesterday and was basically told that, with the results from the u/s, I definitely ovulated and to just calm down and not stress. That's easier said than done! I don't feel calm at all. I feel really quite desperate. I realize it's silly, but I'm really feeling the slipping away of days with regards to fertility at the moment. I don't know why I'm feeling this way. It's like it's eating away at me - more than usual!

I've also been so incredibly tired the last few days. I feel very emotional. I just want to find somewhere to lay down and cry myself to sleep. I'm guessing this must be side effects to Femara - I know I was a bit like this with Clomid as well. I just wish something would give so I could know definitely that I've ovulated and then test to find out yes or no and move on.

To top it all off, I've been very, very stressed at work lately. The new project I'm heading up will go live on April 5, so I'm in the final planning stages and it feels like everything is still up in the air! I have so much to get done and no time to do it in and other departments keep dumping their work on me because they don't want to handle it. I feel a bit crazy and panicked.

Having said all that, The Hubs and I did get away this past weekend for a break with my mom. The three of us went to Savannah, GA and just relaxed a little (although, on returning home, I had massive amounts of schoolwork to get completed for last night. Oh, yeah, forgot to mention my current class is a nightmare class!). We went to City Market and River Street on Saturday. Ate at Olive Garden (my fav!) on Saturday night. Had a lovely rest at the Courtyard by Marriott, then had breakfast at IHOP and spent Sunday at Keller's Flea Market where I found some excellent deals on designer handbags (the real deal too! None of that knock-off crap!). I'll be returning in a few weeks to purchase some for Christmas gifts!

One last bit of news (and this time it's good!): I've been invited by my University to join Alpha Sigma Lambda, the honors society! I've maintained a 4.0 for over a year and, so, I'll be joining. I'm very pleased with that :D

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Kelli said...

Wow, sister...you are a busy girl! I'm glad that you had a wonderful weekend away and got some time to relax. And I'm totally jealous of your handbag find! Purses are my weakness. :)

Still praying for you daily...hang in there. Hugs!

Heather said...

oooh! I think there are good things coming your way...and congrats on the honors society! I'm working on my advanced degree and desperately just want to be done! :)

Big hugs.

Anonymous said...

I am sorry that you are feeling down Lynn, I think alot of can relate. Sometimes we can't find reasons for our dumper days but I know your will feel better soon ! (((HUGS)))

Sounds like you had a wonderful time shopping! Congrats on the GPA and the invite, you must so proud of yourself ! :)

Anonymous said...

Congrats on being invited to the honor's society! That is awesome! I need a break, that weekend sounds pretty fun. I've never seen two lines either. I hope we both do soon.

Kelly said...

Wow! Congratulations on the honor society! How wonderful.

I hate when FF doesn't agree with our thoughts on things. I hope that you're feeling better about things soon.

Wishing 4 One said...

Wow lots of fun stuff! I love the salad at Olive Garden and the breadsticks too, I miss those. Sorry your feeling down, those drugs do it every time. I have not taken either one you mentioned but others I took turned me either into an bitch or a cryin fool. Feel better and feel very proud for your achievement of getting into the honors society yeah!

AKD said...

I'm so sorry that you are having a down time - I know how hard it is to worry, and how discouraging it is. I'm hoping for the best for you.

We went to Savannah for work a couple of years ago, and it was lovely! This time of year is so beautiful - the trees are just gorgeous!

Browniris said...

It sounds like you have A LOT going on right now! And, I know it doesn't help at all when you and Fertility Friend aren't seeing eye to eye. I hope that you can find a way to get a little more R & R. GL!

Glass Case of Emotion said...


Congrats on the 4.0/ honor society! Sorry the big O is so allusive and confusing. Good luck this cyle!

- Jessica

Anonymous said...

Lots of fun stuff! I love Savannah so much!! Wishing you all the best with this cycle!


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