The Interminable Wait

First off let me welcome those of you stopping by for ICLW! I'm Lynn, 31 years young, married to The Hubs, been TTC for 6 years with never even a hint of two pink lines. I'm glad you decided to stop by and visit me! You can read more about my TTC history here, here, here and here. We've been through a lot on our journey to be parents, but we're confident one day we'll be blessed with a child of our own, either biologically or through adoption or both. I'm currently in the midst of a confusing cyle where I tried Femara and it produced many good follies and Fertility Friend seems to think I've ovulated but I'm not totally convinced. My temps haven't gone up much yet.

I'm feeling very down today. As I said above, I'm still not totally certain I've ovulated because my temps are still fairly low and I really wanted this month to produce results. I called my doctor's office again yesterday and was basically told that, with the results from the u/s, I definitely ovulated and to just calm down and not stress. That's easier said than done! I don't feel calm at all. I feel really quite desperate. I realize it's silly, but I'm really feeling the slipping away of days with regards to fertility at the moment. I don't know why I'm feeling this way. It's like it's eating away at me - more than usual!

I've also been so incredibly tired the last few days. I feel very emotional. I just want to find somewhere to lay down and cry myself to sleep. I'm guessing this must be side effects to Femara - I know I was a bit like this with Clomid as well. I just wish something would give so I could know definitely that I've ovulated and then test to find out yes or no and move on.

To top it all off, I've been very, very stressed at work lately. The new project I'm heading up will go live on April 5, so I'm in the final planning stages and it feels like everything is still up in the air! I have so much to get done and no time to do it in and other departments keep dumping their work on me because they don't want to handle it. I feel a bit crazy and panicked.

Having said all that, The Hubs and I did get away this past weekend for a break with my mom. The three of us went to Savannah, GA and just relaxed a little (although, on returning home, I had massive amounts of schoolwork to get completed for last night. Oh, yeah, forgot to mention my current class is a nightmare class!). We went to City Market and River Street on Saturday. Ate at Olive Garden (my fav!) on Saturday night. Had a lovely rest at the Courtyard by Marriott, then had breakfast at IHOP and spent Sunday at Keller's Flea Market where I found some excellent deals on designer handbags (the real deal too! None of that knock-off crap!). I'll be returning in a few weeks to purchase some for Christmas gifts!

One last bit of news (and this time it's good!): I've been invited by my University to join Alpha Sigma Lambda, the honors society! I've maintained a 4.0 for over a year and, so, I'll be joining. I'm very pleased with that :D

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