Beginning the Healing

First of all, thanks so much to all of you who've posted such supportive comments! I am so lucky to have such wonderful friends and I want each of you to know how much I appreciate you! I will be getting around to visiting each of you soon. I'm still finding it difficult to balance work, school, life and my bloggy world, but I'm working on it. Please be patient with me!

It's been a week since the little one was born. I'm feeling better about things now. I know it will be a very long time (if ever) that the hurt completely goes away, but I'm moving forward with a better outlook on our own fertility possibilities.

The Hubs and I have discussed it and decided we want to tentatively begin our visits with my doctor, although they'll be limited for a while yet. To that end, I have scheduled an appointment with my doctor on February 17. I'll be having my annual check up and discussing our next steps with her. I know I need to have an HSG performed to ensure my tubes aren't blocked and I'd like to see about giving Fe.mara a try. I know a few people who've tried it and had luck. I really don't expect it to work for us, but I'm willing to try it while we're still in the (sadly required) twiddling-our-thumbs stage.

After those options, I guess we'll be looking at a referral to an RE to start planning for an IUI. The reason for the wait on the RE is that the closest one is 2 hours away, making it very difficult to get to him. Oh, and the fact that my insurance covers zero, zilch, nada towards fertility treatment.

For a little bit of fun, I've created a list of baby names The Hubs and I like and you can vote on the ones you like! If you're interested on voting on my list, just click on the box below:


You can also create your own list and have others vote on your names. If you create your own list, please be sure to let me know and I'll go vote on your names as well.

Currently, my FF Ticker has me at 21dpo, but its been bouncing back and forth between two dates and I don't think either of them are right. I think being sick this cycle and being on several different medications threw the soy out and I'm in the midst of an anovulatory cycle. Again. Certainly the HPT I took last night was negative (and at 20dpo, I would expect it to come up, even in the evening, if I were pg) and my temps haven't really been sustained at a high enough level to suggest a true O. So, if AF doesn't show up between now and my doctor appointment, I'll discuss that with her as well.

It doesn't take away the last week or erase the feelings I have about what's happened, but it does give me something to focus on and move forward with to start contemplating our own fertility again. I think that's important.