Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Beginning the Healing

First of all, thanks so much to all of you who've posted such supportive comments! I am so lucky to have such wonderful friends and I want each of you to know how much I appreciate you! I will be getting around to visiting each of you soon. I'm still finding it difficult to balance work, school, life and my bloggy world, but I'm working on it. Please be patient with me!

It's been a week since the little one was born. I'm feeling better about things now. I know it will be a very long time (if ever) that the hurt completely goes away, but I'm moving forward with a better outlook on our own fertility possibilities.

The Hubs and I have discussed it and decided we want to tentatively begin our visits with my doctor, although they'll be limited for a while yet. To that end, I have scheduled an appointment with my doctor on February 17. I'll be having my annual check up and discussing our next steps with her. I know I need to have an HSG performed to ensure my tubes aren't blocked and I'd like to see about giving Fe.mara a try. I know a few people who've tried it and had luck. I really don't expect it to work for us, but I'm willing to try it while we're still in the (sadly required) twiddling-our-thumbs stage.

After those options, I guess we'll be looking at a referral to an RE to start planning for an IUI. The reason for the wait on the RE is that the closest one is 2 hours away, making it very difficult to get to him. Oh, and the fact that my insurance covers zero, zilch, nada towards fertility treatment.

For a little bit of fun, I've created a list of baby names The Hubs and I like and you can vote on the ones you like! If you're interested on voting on my list, just click on the box below:

VOTE on my Name List

You can also create your own list and have others vote on your names. If you create your own list, please be sure to let me know and I'll go vote on your names as well.

Currently, my FF Ticker has me at 21dpo, but its been bouncing back and forth between two dates and I don't think either of them are right. I think being sick this cycle and being on several different medications threw the soy out and I'm in the midst of an anovulatory cycle. Again. Certainly the HPT I took last night was negative (and at 20dpo, I would expect it to come up, even in the evening, if I were pg) and my temps haven't really been sustained at a high enough level to suggest a true O. So, if AF doesn't show up between now and my doctor appointment, I'll discuss that with her as well.

It doesn't take away the last week or erase the feelings I have about what's happened, but it does give me something to focus on and move forward with to start contemplating our own fertility again. I think that's important.


Alena said...

I recently came across your blog and have been reading along. I thought I would leave my first comment. I don't know what to say except that I have enjoyed reading. Nice blog. I will keep visiting this blog very often.


aceswyf said...

Wow, I'm sorry :-( I had no idea any of this had happened. I've been a terrible blogger lately and I guess that spilled over into my blog reading as well.

I know you and The Hubs :-) will get through this. You guys are going to make amazing parents, whether it's through conceiving your own or adopting a baby in need.

Ms B. Thrift said...

Big hugs sweetie definitely having something to focus on helps with healing im most certain of it! I wish you so much luck with your plans! xxx

Anonymous said...

It's so hard, and I'm thinking of you--it takes so much energy to make it through this process, and I hope it all turns out right for you and your husband.


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